My wife and I are nearing the end of our coaching, and we have made strides. Definitely not without sacrifice, though. She has started to show me more love and affection than ever, but I’ve also had her thoughts and feelings in mind more than I ever have. Although it’s not completely perfect. I’ve been struggling internally with my own personal feelings.

My selfishness has to be my greatest sin. I have it built in my head to think about only how I feel, and I have problems trying to look at my actions and expressions from an outside perspective. I am consumed by my ego, but I’ve learned through faith that I can begin to break through.

Before, I used to have a craving for video games. So much so that I didn’t care that I was missing out on my own children. Of course, I didn’t think about it affecting them, and I was always coming up with excuses on why I needed to play. After going a few weeks not playing and instead just thinking about all the things I could be doing instead. I now see that they were just a waste of time, all be it a fun waste of time.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I still play them with friends from time to time, but I can see now that I was just happy being able to accomplish things faster in games than I could in real life. Only to now realize that those accomplishments amounted to nothing. Nothing I did on there affected my life in any way. Instead, I’ve started taking that time to catch up on much needed sleep or to do things that have to be done around the house. In doing so, things pile up a lot slower.